Would you believe me if I said I always knew it was going to take this amount of time for us to grow? They say, everything happened for a reason. The journey has been long and arduous; to the world, it seems like I've forgotten - truth is I've taken a hiatus to learn to surrender.
I'm such a fighter, fighting in whatever I believed was always going to be true. Never thought I'd stop fighting. The night my door was kicked, my world fell. I had to retreat in a world of silence, renounce the world from all that I believed in, from all the pain from trying.
That night was laced in mystery. No one could fathom my thoughts. I knew my choice would save me from falling from grace any further. It would create a boundary neither of us would cross. I drew the line so clear hoping it would defy all my beliefs.
It worked well, didn't it?
Now I sit alone, learnt to stop resisting the resistance. I surrender to the unknown, to hopelessness, to the abyss of solitude.
Now, I only fear that you'll never hear of the truth, I only fear the pain I might have inflicted hunt too much, I only fear.
Unwavering faith in you, may you always be happy and well.
posted by anjeltherine at 10:29 PM
Saturday, September 17, 2016
Everytime I dream, I get lost in those beautiful worlds. I would trade anything for it; I'd rather never wake up.
Slowly but surely, the earth is awakening. I found the clues, but does it fit the puzzle? My gut instincts says I'm right.
It will take courage to look deep beyond the crystal ball. It will take strength to face the demons. It will take faith to believe this is true.
My wish shall be your command: find me.
Slowly but surely, the earth is awakening. I found the clues, but does it fit the puzzle? My gut instincts says I'm right.
It will take courage to look deep beyond the crystal ball. It will take strength to face the demons. It will take faith to believe this is true.
My wish shall be your command: find me.
Monday, April 06, 2015
Years.
This is what took me back to where I've left it. My best friend left this world - the only person who knew all my real turmoils. I tried to relive what was left of her to no avail. I could not send the email to her.
I am much stronger than before. She would be proud of what I am now. But only will she know the sacrifices I've made, the facades I've put on, the many things that made me look cold and heartless to be where I am now.
Alas, going through transcripts. And I quote, 'Somehow you are always in my heart. No matter how I run off or whatsoever, you are always there in the end. It's like a roundabout.'
This is what took me back to where I've left it. My best friend left this world - the only person who knew all my real turmoils. I tried to relive what was left of her to no avail. I could not send the email to her.
I am much stronger than before. She would be proud of what I am now. But only will she know the sacrifices I've made, the facades I've put on, the many things that made me look cold and heartless to be where I am now.
Alas, going through transcripts. And I quote, 'Somehow you are always in my heart. No matter how I run off or whatsoever, you are always there in the end. It's like a roundabout.'
Monday, December 27, 2010
I know it'a been a while, but I need this virtual space back. I need to write in order to keep my sanity. I don't live in solitude. They'd worry if I continue to spend my nights alone staring out into space.
If you're a friend, do not worry. I'm perfectly fine. There wasn't a specific reason why I chose to lock this up in the past, and I was telling you the truth when I told you I never came back anymore. I was trying to kill my internet addiction, drown myself in dramas and focus on living my life right. This is ridiculous, I can hardly ever imagine who ever bothers to come back; this must be me being silly.
Dear N, you have been a very important friend in my life, although it's hardly obvious. I made several attempts trying to convey you my thoughts but each time I start, I stop. There's really so much that I want to share with you but I don't know where to begin. I went through a whole train of thoughts but I guess I have to be reticent. The situation is a little complex, and I'm not even sure if the ball is in my court. Therefore whatever I was going to tell you wasn't going to be substantial. Plus, it's the festive season and I want you to enjoy it. :)
Whatever happens, there's going to be sacrifice. I'm torn and I only blame myself for not being wise.
Friday, March 20, 2009
I want to be Renee's neighbour.
I want to be Renee's neighbour.
I want to be Renee's neighbour.
I want to be RENEE'S NEIGHBOUR!!!
*crosses finger*
I want to be Renee's neighbour.
I want to be Renee's neighbour.
I want to be RENEE'S NEIGHBOUR!!!
*crosses finger*
Monday, March 16, 2009
Hey, like I don't know what to start with and actually I have nothing to begin. If you might like to know, we got a calligraphy set over the last last weekend and that's like the latest hobby that lasted for mere few minutes then to never be touched again.
Yesterday, visited this nicer-then-Chaddy mall known as Westfield. Totally beats Chaddy and now probably may have my pledge for loyalty because there's a couple of nice stationery stalls with pretty printed papers and nice calligraphy pens and very sophiscated range of stationery. There's perfumed ink that's so amazing and I'd better buck up in practice using the fountain pen, so that I can justify splurging on these absolutely nonsense stationery. Anyway, I love.
Tell me if you want a handwritten letter in calligraph and provide your addy please.
Yesterday, visited this nicer-then-Chaddy mall known as Westfield. Totally beats Chaddy and now probably may have my pledge for loyalty because there's a couple of nice stationery stalls with pretty printed papers and nice calligraphy pens and very sophiscated range of stationery. There's perfumed ink that's so amazing and I'd better buck up in practice using the fountain pen, so that I can justify splurging on these absolutely nonsense stationery. Anyway, I love.
Tell me if you want a handwritten letter in calligraph and provide your addy please.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
This semester the new motto is 'will-power'. The past few had been things like 'dilligence', 'determination' and whats not. They did not work. I'm entrusting that I possibly may have a stronger will-power than anything else and so hopefully this will work.
Currently quite satisfied with the results cause I managed to skip 2 classes so far by accident. One was because I didn't enrol for it so I did not know there was a class. Second was because I had a clash class and the system did not show me that I had another class, damn it. And thank god I have been kiasu, therefore I managed to hand up an assignment even though I had no idea this week was the due date.
I just need this for another 10 weeks. God bless.
Currently quite satisfied with the results cause I managed to skip 2 classes so far by accident. One was because I didn't enrol for it so I did not know there was a class. Second was because I had a clash class and the system did not show me that I had another class, damn it. And thank god I have been kiasu, therefore I managed to hand up an assignment even though I had no idea this week was the due date.
I just need this for another 10 weeks. God bless.
Monday, March 02, 2009
As our merlion got struck by lightning, I was stuck in the plane for an hour waiting for the skies to clear. For once, I actually witnessed how bad weather affects flight. Anyway, speedy recovery to our merlion, poor tourists would be so disappointed if they can't have snapshots with our imaginery friend. Maybe the fengshui back at Sentosa was better, hmmm.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Random. But.......
I have the best bunny on earth. (Who very instinctively knows if I sing any praises, usually it comes with a motive. Heh heh)
=)
I have the best bunny on earth. (Who very instinctively knows if I sing any praises, usually it comes with a motive. Heh heh)
=)